heh, i’m, in the zone for web design this weekend
finsihed the prototype for DW-Tool’s home page:
http://www.customdigital.net/dwtool
they wanted me to redo their old site
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New record, i designed, built and published Christian harder’s website in one session, (11h). ROAR!!!!!!
I’m ready to test for chapter 4 in math monday, after that 2 more test till i get an associates degree.
I hung up picture of inspiration people on my wall near my computer, it helps me keep focused i got hova, hatsumi, jolie, jung, and greg graffin chillin there.
I can throw basic dust combos in guilty gear now too.. ha!
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You are Dennis the Repressed! A political activist
way ahead of your time. Everyone is always out
to get you…but you’ll fight the dirty
bastards to the death!Which Monty Python & the Holy Grail Character are you REALLY?
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tonight sensei said something particually interesting. Scott, Paul and I were training in kick combos and he asked us ‘do you ever think to yourself while you doing tecniques that you are not doing them right?’ ‘Do yuo think that you are screwing it up (the tecnique)?’
He said that we should never think that way, and when that voice pops up in our head, we should immeditally throw it out of thoughs. He said that kind of though leads to ‘the valley of indecision’ and that leads to losing touch with the flow of things.
He speaks about this in the context of combat, but I have learnd that most esoteric knowledge has a way of applying itself universally.
Sensei said that the only person we really have is ourselves. If we don’t believe in ourselves, then who will?
Do i still believe in myself?
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1) I was accepted to URI for summer 2005. I paid the depost, and now i need to get togather $1k+ dollars to fees. I have $80 in my bank account, and I owe $140 at the beginning of the month for ninjutsu. I think i’ll see if i can get a loan, because i don’t think my parents are going to cover a grand.
2) Barns and Nobel hired me, i’m working the cafe and my first day is sunday @ 10am – 5pm. Thanks Leah! I’m starting @ 7.25 because I have a lot of previous retail exp. Barens and nobel has a lot of perks!
3) 3 more maths tests and I have an associates degree in general studies from CCRI. 4 years in the making.
4) my poor girlfriend is a wreck. The stress of school and such is taking its toal on her, its tuff because i can’t help her out with anythin really; i can be there for her, i hope thats enuf.
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back to my original question… do I still believe in myself?
It’s a long walk though the valley of indecision………………and in the last couple of weeks i have explored a bit of the valley… there is really nothing for me here (in the valley).
Do I still believe in myself? That statement assumes that I believed in myself at one point. Do I believe in myself? Have I ever?
Self doubt is a downward spiral. The only progression is more restrictions of movement on many planes.
I’ve said to people before that I’m going to be rich, I’m going to make history, and I’m going to be trailblazer rather than a follower. To be anything else would be an insult to how i’m living.
but here is the interesting thing: all of my greatest accomplishment have been in the digital world. In that world, for all the stuff i’ve done, I’m a legend in my own mind.
In the other world, the world in which you’re sitting right now, peering into the digital world though your monitor, i’ve not done a whole lot yet.
I’m temptend to delete most of the shit i just wrote but instead i’ll keep it.
Do I belive in myself?
Your bet your ass I do, reguardles of whatever anyone else thinks.
Goodbye to the valley of indecision, i’m sure i’ll come back again some day. But for now, the world is mine again.
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Today SUCKED. I’m not going to relive it here cause i’m starting to feel better but here are the quick low-lights.
1) Work up at 12:30pm
2) got the finger from jeff the improv acting professor
3) drew the ‘when i think about you i touch myself’ line for improv acting… everyone was either very impressed or very shocked. probably both.
4) hear about the tragic situation of a kid i grew up with, he’s in the hot spot in iraq right now…. and yes, woman and children are being used as human shields.fuck life. i’m gonna go play fable
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I’m fed up with short term memory loss and paranoia.
I swear, on pain of death and humiliation, I am DONE smoking pot until 11/22/05. perhapse longer.
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some days I wonder what i should be doin with my life….
then i play Fable.
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Anonymous is discussing.
Anonymous 12:01 pm on November 23, 2004 Permalink
How about this one:
Last Friday:
1.) Dog eats $50 USB flash drive.
2.) Dog rolls around in shit in the yard.
3.) Woman comes within inches of hitting me, focing me off the road.
4.) Have to go to doctors again for unknown illness. Give 3 vials of blood.
5.) Forget Firewire cable for film project. Can’t work.
6.) Have your own mother accuse you of being incompetent.
7.) Yell at mother.
8.) She makes you leave, and doesn’t apologize.
Nice.
I’m sorry to hear about your friend, I hope he is alright.
L.
Anonymous 8:54 pm on November 24, 2004 Permalink
You mean Branden hommes?
-Nick
Nathan Haskins 9:22 pm on November 24, 2004 Permalink
fuckno not brandon. brandon’s doin’ fine in london, chillin with his newly wed.
this is somebody else, a kid i knew because me and my bro use to play with him cause my mom was friend w/ his mom.